Thursday, October 20, 2011


I don't know what came over me, but today I ate a (big) chocolate chip cookie.

A doll I got that is supposed to remind me what it feels like when I eat crap.
But she was high on a shelf, out of my line of vision.
I have moved her to sit with me where I work on the computer.
~to remind me~

I haven't had processed sugar since mid-September, and I've had on a very miniscule bit of wheat or gluten.

I felt nauseous almost instantly, and even a little itchy. Within an hour I also had a little heartburn, the beginnings of a headache, and I even felt slightly dizzy. I instant messaged TheMostImportantGuy online to tell him what I'd done and how I was feeling, and that's when he reminded me that the cookie had eggs--which I am allergic to.

Ayyyyeeeearrrghhhhh!! In my cookie crazed moment, I knew I was making a poor choice with the sugar and wheat (which I am not allergic to, I just haven't had it in so long)...but I didn't even consider the eggs!! The eggs!!!!!!!!

I'm not happy at all to be feeling like crap, yet at the same time, I am sooooo happy to be feeling just like crap.

Instant feedback, even when it's negative feedback, is a very useful thing for me.
And this reaction is so noticeable, it's highly motivating to not want to pull that shit again.


painting with fire said...

No fun but as you say, highly motivating to not cheat. Am right there with you on wheat - so not worth it but sometimes so HARD to skip.

~Donna~ said...

Well, sometimes you just can't help yourself.

And you will learn the lessons one way or another. This I can guarantee. :)

Can you handle egg substitutes? They are ok in omelets and stuff, I have never tried baking with them though.

Linda said...

Love the doll. Hooray for you as you navigate these tremendous dietary challenges. What's up with finding a garlic substitute?